It Started When I Lost My Love

I had this crush on one Pakistani blood Malay girl, a Begum beauty from Kuala Lumpur. I tried hard to get her attention. I went to her hostel in UiTM, Shah Alam, only a few blocks from mine. I thought she was destined to be mine, but she was really hard to conquer. I was pursuing my degree in chemistry, and she was in food technology. One day I sent a letter to her telling her that I wanted to meet her (there was no mobile phone then, way back in 1981) at the cafeteria. And she signaled me that she would be there to see me.

She came indeed but with someone else, a guy. And I immediately noticed that the guy was a nerd from somewhere kampong area in Terengganu. She told me then, that there will be no future with me, that I was playful and immature. That nerd, according to her was a best student from one of the schools in UiTM. And she mentioned that she will marry that bloody fool!

So you know how I felt at the time. I was a fool to have fallen in love with this Begum. I knew then, that I was about to fall apart, that I was going to just ignore everything - studies, home, parents, etc.

OOOps, it's time to watch Liverpool vs AC Milan.

Do you know why I joined them

It was nothing to do with my religious belief, but merely out of frustration from this real life. Frustration from failure in three things - education, relationships and career. But one thing for sure, is due to ignorance. It is not justified for a person to create havoc in this planet earth. This is outrageous. But one must try to stop this from escalating. As we mature and start to understand and perceive things, we may get distorted from wrong informations. The best thing is to get the family unit strong. The elders must instill in the young ones about the real value of humanity. The very basic misdeed among people today is their very abuse on their own inner self. The heart is the root to all actions. How could a person resort to destruction. Destruction only leads to more destruction. And people need to understand other people's feelings. To understand, also comes from the heart. A clean heart.

Taming The Tiger

This is about a former anti-establishment person, who was a terrorist in Malaysia but later changed to become somebody. He was a well-educated person, joined the Malaysian army but lost his job due to some miserable incidents. He became vicious, and was ever ready to create havoc in the country. Later incidents in his life made him change 360 degrees to become what he is now.